Fat Mommy to Fit Mommy

I'm searching for some inspiration here.

I'm having a lot of problems being motivated this time around. I'm eating well, (most of the time, yesterday being an exception, more on that later), but I just can't find the energy to work out!!!! I'm hoping the new trainer (we'll call her "B") will be able to get me excited and give me some new workouts.

I'm at that stage, though, where you feel that you have so far to go, it's almost not worth trying. And I tell myself all of the following truths:

1 - take it day by day
2 - time flies - 3 months will go by so quickly, and with it, if I try hard, 30 pounds.
3 - each week that passes, I will be fitter and fitter, and feel amazingly better

etc etc.

i can't help wondering if my current mental state (VERY distracted by trying to make a huge decision regarding my future career prospects) is keeping me from being able to focus.

so - yesterday! we took the kids to drumheller. i packed lots of healthy snacks, hoping to avoid the inevitable "chip urges" that come with travelling.

1st stop - gas station. ian goes in to pay... and comes back with a huge bag of chips. sigh. to my credit, the whole day, i only had about 10 chips.

anyways, the snacking wasn't an issue, but when lunch time came, things got really stressful really fast - the kids are fighting with eachother, luci is screaming to be fed... and ian's like "WHAT DO YOU WANT" so I finally just gave it (yes, easily I admit) and ordered a burger. A yummy, greasy burger. I go to sit down, and Ian brings the tray - with fries. He ordered me fries. Sigh. Once again I showed considerable restraint - I only at about 10 fries.

not great, but a big change from someone who used to order a big mac AND a cheeseburger AND large fries WITH mayo for dip.

end result - I actually made it to 2500 calories for the first time. too funny.

one bad thing - i haven't worked out in a long while. i do think that walking through a museum for 2.5 hours must count for something. but it's not the same, and i know it.

well, hopefully B will call today and we can meet soon, because i do feel like time is slipping away from me.